No more sleeps. I'm sitting here on the morning of my double mastectomy operation.
D-day... or should I say B-day... has finally arrived.
It's 6:30am and I'm shoveling a big omelette in my face before the 'eating cut off time' approaches. My gorgeous yoga teacher, Hana, is arriving at 8am for a final class to take my mind off things and get me in a positive mindset, before heading into the hospital at 11:30 ...surgery at 3pm.
I'm sorry I didn't write more in my BRCA Blog last week, but I found the best way for me to be was 'crazy busy', to distract myself from my upcoming situation. So, I did loads, from catch up coffees to a photo shoot to my burlesque performance ....everything was great (I will write about it all during my recovery) ...and everything was the perfect distraction. Yesterday, I spent the day with my incredible mum, buying me all-new bedsheets, so I have a comfy new bed for my return. I was holding up well, just the odd teary moment. Then dinner with a small crew of some of my favourite people....again, held up well, even maintaining the odd boobie-joke at this point. When I got home at 10pm, I had a shower in the prescribed anti-bacterial wash, walked into my room and lost it. The distractions had finished...and I could not stop crying.
I'm not going to write a lot today, I don't think I should. I need to remain positive and relaxed. So, just a quick post today to say "THANK YOU" to everyone who has sent me love and support over the last few weeks, since my initial post a month ago. I REALLY appreciate all the encouragement and kindness that I have received from each of you. It has helped to support me, to get me to this point in one piece, and will continue to do so after today is done. THANK YOU ...and see you on the flipside ...when I'm bigger, better and boobie-er.
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